Heartbreak

This past week has been absolute blur, one minute I’m happily in love with the girl of my dreams looking to plan a future together and the next I’ve had my heart torn out and I feel completely alone.

I’d been with her for nearly 5 years and we were high school sweethearts. Throughout that time we had some absolutely amazing experiences and adventures together and she has been and will always be the only girl I want to spend my life with.

She wants space to think about herself right now and reflect on everything. Whilst deep down a part of me knows that she is right, it breaks my heart knowing that I’ve caused this. It breaks my heart knowing that I didn’t love her enough. 

We both still love each other so much and we both do know it will all work out in the end but this in-between period just sucks. I want to spend every second with her by my side, but I know I have to respect what she wants to prove to her that I love her more than anything.

I just didn’t realise that love could hurt so much…

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  1. Cheynoea says:

    I am so sorry you are going through this right now. Hang in there, I won’t say everything will be okay (I hate when people say that stuff to me) but I will say, keep looking forward to the road you are traveling. Don’t focus on the rearview mirror.

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you so much. Right now I’m hurting so much but I do know that if we are going to work things out we need time to heal things first. Thank you for your lovely comment!

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      1. Cheynoea says:

        It helps just to be able to have rational thought at a time like this. It seems you are doing that. I wish you well on your journey.

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      2. chazzabrown says:

        Thank you, I really appreciate your kind words.

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  2. I’m sorry you’re hurting. But you know, everything happens for a reason. It might make your love stronger, or it might make you stronger.

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you for your kind words. I know if we are to end up together I can’t force things, but like you said everything happens reason so hopefully this will make us stronger.

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  3. hopelessblog says:

    It sucks and im so sorry to hear this, but i promise you now it gets SO much easier. There will be bad days and there will be good days but eventually there will be more good then bad days and you will show yourself how strong you really are. Chin up, here if you need to talk, i promise everything will be okay !xxx

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you for your lovely words! Yes at the moment everything does seem bleak, but I know that if we are meant to be then it will work out in the end! Thank you so much ☺️

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  4. Mel Gutiér says:

    You’re gaining muscle for life. This is not the end. This is the beginning. Live, if you belong then you will, but if not… live. Your future is counting on this muscle, this toning for life.

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you for your lovely words, I hope you are right.

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  5. Mel Gutiér says:

    By the way, there is no such thing as loving someone “enough”. Love is love. Don’t blame yourself if she needs time your love is allowing her to take this time. It’s an opportunity for you now… muscle up. You can do this! I believe in you.

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  6. it’s so crazy i ran into this post. i havent really been on wordpress too much lately and i check this e mail and it hit me like a rock. im goin through the same thing man, and she broke up with me last week. just as other people have said man, the best thing we can do right now is let them breath and take a break. now its time to become a better you. become a better you and focus on your purpose.

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thanks man I appreciate it! Hopefully things will work out for us, and hopefully for you too!

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  7. Cucabear says:

    Went through a heart break myself last week. Although it wasn’t nearly as long of a relationship as yours, the love was real, and the pain was strong. I made a post on it too, although beware it’s super depressing.
    I really hope it all works out in the end, everyone deserves love and happiness.
    Stay strong!

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you! You too, if things are meant to be then they are meant to be at the end of the day❤️

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  8. Oh no, so sad to hear that you’re hurting. Keep strong and I wish you all the best xxx

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you, I’m really trying!

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  9. Vera Stuart says:

    You care for her. A lot. It’s rare to find people who genuinely care about others. It’s lovely. I hope, for your sake and hers, everything works out in the end for you guys. Stay blessed. 🙂

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you so much, I love her so much I want nothing more than for us to be together.

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  10. Dewy says:

    Just to let you in. My friend and her boy friend broke up after they got engaged. In the end they married each other . They are still married. Sometimes people just need time away to seriously think about things. She’s probably missing you as bad as you’re missing her. What will be will be.

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you, yes I agree, sometimes people have to fall out of love to realise how much they truly love each other!

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  11. I’m so sorry to hear this. Heartbreak is so difficult, but such a true feeling. Keep your head up. Do things you enjoy doing. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability with us. We’re all here to support you.

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you for your support!

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  12. Julie Silva says:

    Im sorry to hear that. I can totally relate. I wish you a lot of light in your life

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you so much!

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  13. lbfreeverse says:

    Your words are absolutely beautiful. I admire how much you love her and want the best for her though it’s breaking your heart at the same time. All my love, prayers, and support to you! Love isn’t supposed to be easy. Love is supposed to break you down, hurt like hell, teach you lessons, but what really matters is who you choose to go through that with.

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    1. chazzabrown says:

      Thank you! Yes she means the entire world to me and hopefully this will be a learning curve for the both of us!

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  14. Thank you for openly sharing your heart ❤

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  15. I’m so sorry, there is no question that it hurts no matter what your age. Thanks for checking out blogs anyway!

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