This past week has been absolute blur, one minute I’m happily in love with the girl of my dreams looking to plan a future together and the next I’ve had my heart torn out and I feel completely alone.
I’d been with her for nearly 5 years and we were high school sweethearts. Throughout that time we had some absolutely amazing experiences and adventures together and she has been and will always be the only girl I want to spend my life with.
She wants space to think about herself right now and reflect on everything. Whilst deep down a part of me knows that she is right, it breaks my heart knowing that I’ve caused this. It breaks my heart knowing that I didn’t love her enough.
We both still love each other so much and we both do know it will all work out in the end but this in-between period just sucks. I want to spend every second with her by my side, but I know I have to respect what she wants to prove to her that I love her more than anything.
I just didn’t realise that love could hurt so much…